here I go again

....disappointment

...frustrated

..annoyed

That is how I feel these days .

I worked so hard just a few short years ago to meet my goal,

 I was sooo close....

and I let it go.

I started again last year,

ended up sick

and let it go once more.

So here I sit again

- same situation

- same goal.

Will I be successful

will I follow through

will I continue...

for life

These are all the thoughts that have been going through my head. With my lack of success I often think I am being judged or rejected; because of this I turn on myself and make things worse.  I give up and then beat myself up - repeat, repeat, repeat.

But Monday I made the decision.

NO MORE!

Head high,

I am getting help.

I called on friends and they are by my side

encouraging

motivating

talking about it out loud.

Thank you friends!

thank you for sharing your successes and defeats

thank you for telling me I deserve this and will succeed

thank you for telling me you will walk this path WITH me

thanks for being friends!

I WILL LOSE THIS BAGGAGE I HAVE AND MEET MY GOAL.

Three days under my belt, and I am down .8.
Not huge but for 3 days...I'm content.

Vacation...you will not get in my way.

I will continue on and record a loss even when you are tugging at me to cave...to give in...

telling me it's a vacation and this is all part of it will not work.

I will be successful

I will follow through

I will continue...

for life

Watch out healthy, here I come!

...to be continued