If I could go back to the age of 6, I would sit one more time on Great grandpa Dorsey’s lap and listen, and I mean really listen to his stories about what it was like when he was a kid. I now find it fascinating how they lived their lives with so much work, vigor and happiness and wonder what he would think of our lives today...would he laugh at what we call a hard day of work?
If I could go back to age 10, I would play outside more, spend more time with friends at the pool, I would have joined a sports team…if only they would have had more than just those few sports for girls then. I wouldn't be so shy, I would venture out of my comfort zone and really learn what life is.
If I could go back to the age of 15 I would start preparations for my future with more stringent goals and would not worry so much about what everyone else is doing, who is seeing who and if Blaine is going to be at school today…yes for some of you that didn’t know…we were high school sweethearts.
If I could go back to 18, I would enroll in a college that teaches the art of photography. I have always had a passion for pictures and the memories that they can create. It seems that everyone hates the thought of getting their pictures taken but if you can make them look great you are their hero. I love looking at a picture that can tell a story, I love how you can make someone’s eyes look deep and so inviting. I love looking at the innocence that comes from taking a picture of a small child and how excited they get when they see themselves. I love when I take a picture and everything turns out just right…
I would travel more; I would go to see relatives that live in different States. I would travel to see Barb in Colorado, Mike in Washington (pre-South Dakota) and DeDe when she lived in San Francisco, I would go see the Grand Canyon, and last but not least…I would travel to Hawaii and Alaska.
I would not change having the two beautiful kids that I have, but I would not be so eager to be “done”. (I guess 2 kids under two will make anyone have rash decisions when there exhausted and sleep deprived). This is something I hold with great regret. How fun it would be today to have a little one running around, the sound of pitter patter in the morning, the beaming smiles from the little face that is so eager to see you again, the bear hugs that they give and the sweet sounds of “mommy” when they see you in the morning or return from work…the night time cuddles and storytelling before sleep. Ahhh, I love my kids’ ages but I sure miss them being little too.
I would definitely change where we live; I would choose a house out in the country where we can have pets without leashes, trees of abundance, a big porch surrounded by flowers, feeders to watch all the colorful birds, a yard big enough to hold a trampoline and a swimming pool in the summer and an extra-large hockey rink in the winter. It would be far enough out of town to feel like you are in your own world but close enough to spend time with friends and family.
My cup overflows most days but I would definitely make some changes if I could go back in time; since this time machine doesn't exist yet I think I will work on a list for the second half of my life, start making those goals, check off those items on my bucket list and enjoy all the gifts that I am given each day. I will be thankful for a husband that loves me, cares for me, and would give me the moon if he could. I will be thankful for the amazing kids I have been given, and continue to watch them grow into the wonderful people they are. I will be thankful for all of you...my family and friends who stand by me through it all. I love you all!
What kind of changes would you make? What would you do differently or wish you could do over?
No comments:
Post a Comment